The Excellent Adventure

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 05:36:54 GMT

In memory of MJ...

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 22:46:52 GMT

Without which, Weird Al would not have been able to make his amazing parody of Beat It!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HyfcOriVKBM

<3

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 05:57:40 GMT

Along came a spider...

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 07:38:06 GMT

...that fucked with the wrong girl!

A couple of days ago I was in my room, enjoying some internet hilarity of some sort when I noticed a movement on the wall at the top of my field of vision...I gasped and then screamed when I saw the largest spider that I've ever seen, skitter down the wall and behind my desk...I pulled my legs up onto my chair and then sprang out of the chair and away from my desk toward my door, to run and get my weapon of choice against such monstrosities...a broom with a long handle.

When I returned to my room and cautiously peered around under my desk I could find no trace of the spider, I turned and looked around my room and saw that the demon had positioned itself across the room on the wall above my bed. Noooo, not near my bed you @$#^! I quick-stepped toward it and launched the broom but it easily dodged and went down the wall behind my bed.. I shrieked and backed up, keeping an eye on the floor... nothing, so I tried kicking the edge of my mattress to try and flush it out, still nothing. Then, I noticed a movement to the right on the ceiling near my left closet door...Yup, fucker can get around fast. I again plunged my broom at the spider like Ahab with his harpoon, and..it..jumped! It landed on my open closet door and then skittered into the closet..I shrieked... loud enough that I saw stars when it jumped.

I closed the closet doors with the broom and then tried to formulate a new attack plan..looking for it among all of the random clutter in my closet would be difficult and, hehe, super scary!..but then.. an epiphany!

I ran across the house and into the garage to grab a roll of tape, I then hurried back to my room and paused at the doorway, poking my head in cautiously to see if the spider had decided to come out of the closet..I didn't see it anywhere..so... after putting some gloves on, and with my heart pounding, I carefully taped across the tops and bottoms of the closet doors to make it spider tight. The next morning, after not sleeping very soundly, I peeled back a bit of the tape and set a trap using a vacuum cleaner hose extension tube angled downward and a gallon zip lock bag...

Tonight, on the third day of waiting... at 2:30 AM whilst I lay in bed, reading the second twilight novel, I heard a loud rustling in the bag...

O.M.G.

Sat, 02 May 2009 05:13:54 GMT

HAHAHHahaha

and something to make up for that ;) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBcKScLbhaE

Robot Humps.

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 03:34:04 GMT

hahaha

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 15:39:17 GMT

Worst possible thing to eat?

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 03:48:06 GMT

It turns out that cornbread is the worst thing in the world to eat when you have cottonmouth! I have just discovered this.

Androids. (not the phones)

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 02:53:23 GMT

This is fairly disturbing and highly humorous. Oh, and amazing.

http://grinding.be/2008/10/29/bristol-uni-are-giving-robots-human-facial-expressions/

Click click.

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 23:11:10 GMT

I don't like "The Witcher". :\

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:08:09 GMT

Leathercraft

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 17:15:29 GMT

Seeing different things at the Ren Fair a few weeks ago made me want to get into leather craft. Whenever I have money again i'll be making a medieval style purse, or sporran, probably.

I'd also have to make a binder like the ones in the bottom right corner of this picture, I think it's made from glass eyes and vinyl or craft leather plus some thin felt and good book binding glue..she had a bunch of stuff at the ren faire but it was a bit too expensive for me.

oh and, can someone sponsor me to join up with mtf_undressed again, please? :)

Hrt effectiveness.

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 05:11:07 GMT

Hey, so are injectables better than pills? I hear contradictory things.

Maybe I'll just have to try injects to see if there's any real difference?

I've been pondering asking my doctor about getting on them but, I guess I just want to hear someone who's tried both say "Yeah, Hazel, they're better!", before I do that.

Seems like my development is really slow, with the pills.

Also, here's a nice song.

Books

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 05:31:28 GMT

Reading "The Diamond Age : Or, A Young Lady's Illustrated Primer". Pretty neat, so far.

Chantix

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 17:01:50 GMT

So, I was on Chantix a few weeks ago, and had these really weird dreams every night.

It felt like I was actually half awake the entire night, but I'd "wake up" feeling like I'd just come off of a dirty acid trip every morning.

My emotional state started to spiral and eventually I had an emotional breakdown at work, I started crying and couldn't stop, so had to go home.

Anyway, I stopped taking it the day after that, but now I'm back to smoking. I didn't smoke while I was on the medication, but I don't know what's worse..

I read an article on the CNN website, mentioning Chantix possibly causing mood swings and suicidal behavior in some cases.. so I'm not sure if I'll attempt again. Maybe when I'm between jobs.

Anyway, if anyone reading this is considering going on Chantix, just be aware. If you already have underlying emotional problems, this medication seems to amplify them.

Emo, Vacation, Bible Thumping Herm, Hats.

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 17:15:17 GMT

Sorry I've been away for so long. I've been having a lot of inner turmoil recently. Maybe I've got a brain tumor, or maybe taking paxil during my teens wired my brain the wrong way, or maybe I'm just a cunt that craves affection and friendship yet avoids it because I don't feel like anyone actually wants to be around me or talk with me about anything real.

Anyway, I finished reading all of William Gibson's books over the past couple of months, and started on Neil Stephenson's stuff. Snow Crash was amazingly clever and fun to read.

I also just came home from my first ever paid vacation. I bought a plane ticket to Austin and spent a week visiting with friends and familiy in Texas, but mostly I just watched movies at my Mom's latest rent-a-house, while waiting for her to come home from work.

My monthly Trans support group meeting the other night was the worst meeting I've ever been to, due to a bible thumping, batshit crazy hermaphrodite being invited there for the first, and hopefully last time. S/he helpfully pointed out that if the letters in santa are rearranged, it can also spell ..SATAN! aieeeee. S/he kept staring at me with these buggy eyes that I've seen before, mostly belonging to people loitering outside greyhound bus stations and new members at alcoholics anonymous meetings.

VNV Nation - Illusion

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 02:42:47 GMT

$$$

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 17:34:39 GMT

Even with insurance, healthcare costs a lot more than I would've thought.

My personal costs for that visit to the E.R. a few weeks ago seem to have added up to about $800. The only actual bill I've gotten so far is one for $50 from the radiologist. But the others will come, I'm sure. I also have to get a crown put on one of my teeth, so that's another $360 after the insurance, I've been putting that one off. I dunno how low income people like myself are supposed to survive, honestly. Thankfully the only bill I pay each month is for my cell. I dunno what I'd do if I had a car+insurance/rent/utility/cable bill to pay every month plus this. I guess I'd be heavy in debt, like most people.

They billed my insurance $7680, $635, and $260.

I think i'll just die next time.

Birthday outing

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 21:20:51 GMT

So Laura, Erin and Bobbie Jo took me out to the mall yesterday for a birthday make-up fest at sephora - one of the beauticians painted my face up a little bit, and I discovered my concealer shade. I wore a bra plus breast forms and stuff, and actually hard core presented as a female at the biggest mall around here, on a Saturday no less. It was pretty scary but nobody gave me any weird looks, oddly and nobody called me sir. I made it into the Old Navy dressing rooms unscathed, and was rewarded with a nice and snug pair of size 8 stretch pants. I had a wonderful and embaressing time. Big boobs look really weird on me. I'm almost glad that I'm small naturally. :)

Birthday

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 12:54:00 GMT

I made it to level 25!

oh my gay

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 04:27:54 GMT

They're making a "Hitman" movie - based on the computer game series. There's a trailer on ign. Also, my ass is huge and I just really noticed.

k's Choice-Not an addict

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 05:31:32 GMT

Work

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 02:35:54 GMT

I got a raise today! $9.25 per hour now.

College?!

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 12:50:56 GMT

I don't know where to begin, or what to major in. I've had thoughts about getting a pharmacy technician cert, but that's not really a degree. Bleh. Business Admin? Bleh. I wish I knew.

I'm not really passionate about anything anymore. I just wake up and go bleh while I walk out to the back porch to light up, then I cough and wonder what I'm doing with my life. I'm bleh, and that makes me a sad Hazel. I don't want to *hate* my career. I'd be ok with a mild distaste for it, though.

I haven't had sex for almost three years, either. I need to improve my life, in general, not just my money making options. My current job takes up nearly all of my time, I come home frustrated and angry too often. Heellp.

Stay the course, or get on the horse?

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 03:32:02 GMT

I'm trying to decide if I want to stay in Florida for another year and save more money or go back to Austin and be kinda broke, but be able to have places to go and friends to see again.

Staying in Florida for another year would involve living alone for the majority of it and taking care of Scotty's house while he's away in Qatar. I barely made it through the last year and a half here alone.

Moving back to Austin would involve living with my mom, finding a new job, buying a vehicle and catching up with my friends that I haven't seen in 2+ years.

Scotty offered to pay my college tuition if I stay here for another year and watch over his place again while he's away.

Does responsibility mean not doing what you want to do in the short term so that you can make things better for yourself in the future?

What about love? I'm nearly 25, fuck. Nobody seems interested in me, I don't have any close friends anymore even, am I really that dull or creepy?

I don't know.. I'm not really happy here, I don't have much a social network, or friends that I can see on a daily or even monthly basis. I know moving to Austin won't guarantee my happiness, but I'd at least be able to see my family and some old friends again.

On the up side, I finally discovered where the local TG support group meets. I'm thinking about attending this months meeting, the president of the group seems like a nice person, but It's mostly 40+ year olds that attend. So I dunno. -.-